I was the first one home, so I made dinner. W called when she left work (about 6:15) saying she had to run by the drug store to a couple things - she was till home by about 7pm.
As we all (us + kids) sat down for dinner, we all shared a few jokes about our day. Then, W commented that she was getting tired of people asking her what was going on with her former business and business partner. She then said that, on the day they had their discussion about her leaving, it was a good thing she didn't have a concealed carry permit as her partner had encouraged, since they handled quite a bit of money daily.
D21 & D13 kind of sat there and chuckled for second since neither of them liked the guy, but, I told her the dinner table wasn't really the time to have this talk, and I changed the subject.
Later I did ask her what was going on; she said she was still very angry over they way things with the business partnership were handled (I had gathered that, but, i don't ask...). She knows she shouldn't harbor this much anger, and it clouds other aspects of her life right now. She did go on about some other things - and I continued to listen. We did not discuss the M - she didn't bring it up and I sure as heck wasn't going to...
I helped her study for one of the tests she has to take for the new job (she asked while I was working out). She then complained about her legs and feet hurting; being tired of not feeling well; being stressed out; not being able to focus, etc... (the same basic complaints I've heard since last spring). I did suggest she go ther her doc to discuss these issues with him, then I dropped the subject. After a few minutes of silence, she asked if I'd rub her legs and feet, which I did, which put her to sleep...
I don't know if she has any idea how difficult it is for me to just touch her or talk to her about idle chit-chat. I want to hold her and tell her how much I love her, but, I also have a gut feeling that it's not the time. And I'm tired of sleeping in separate rooms. I'm not really angry, but, sometimes I just want to scream - which is when I go work out.
