I don't know if I recommended it to you, but your W should read Alisa Bowman's book. Look up Project Happily Ever After in your browser. She was a woman who wanted out of her M, but decided to try and make it work one last time. She has a blog and takes a light-hearted yet very honest way of how things are in her M and what it took to turn things around. You might be able to get a few things out of it too.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.