Sitting in the back seat!

[Occy01]

Thanks for the replies! Started with DR yesterday. Am, for some reason, trying to read it 'in secret'! Just feels right not showing her or letting her know about the book. We seem to be in limbo right now, living for the children, W trying to find a house, conversations ranging from trivia to heavy. Got a bit sad yesterday. W said I looked tired, I said didn't sleep much. W asks why? I said ah you know,lots on my mind yesterday ( 4th Anniversary), you know tough day. W says why? I said well, wedding anniversary ( probably not wise!!), she said oh yeah, realised that this afternoon ( day after). Felt like just when I thought she couldn't t hurt me more, that she sticks a knife in and twists it. Just went to bed early, and read DR....maybe a bit oversensitive...

Need to clarify the thing with her parents. They have known since BD. Have said they are there for us both. I have avoided talking to them about anything and everything. When they call its just short answers from me, yes, no etc. Can't even look them in the eyes....