W has gone very cold. No hugs, kisses or anything right now. She is working on all of the emotional trauma in he IC and she says it is like living it all over now, but with the knowledge that it is wrong. I really hope she has success getting through this. I know she is in pain and hurting and scared.
I am reading, working out and backing way off on contact with W. Only talking when she wants and listening and validating. I truly want her to succeed.
She has talked about moving home as she misses the girls. she has also said that everything about the house makes her scared, anxious or feel sick. She feels that she doesn't have a safe place, even at my moms. I asked why and she doesn't know.
She is a mess and is working so hard, yet it scares me if she comes home right now. I think that until she can become more stable it would be better to keep our distances. I also would like more time to change myself before we are put back together. I am stronger now, but not where I need to be, not yet.


M46,W41
D16,D18
M22,T25
BD 11/12
W moved out 01/13
Piecing 10/13
Divorced 01/15
"Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can."
UrWorthy