Yes I did almost talk myself out of going. I almost talked myself out of going again even after paying for airfare,hotel,workshop etc. I almost talked myself out of it again the week before because W and I were getting along so well. I almost talked myself out of it the day of because I put my dog down 1 hour before my flight and a huge blizzard was hitting my area.
I didn't. I went. I got over inertia and did it. I had extreme anxiety mid way through the workshop and leaned on 25 while i was there for support.
You have to get to a point where you take care of yourself. I did thank my W for watching the kids through a very long trapped weekend in the house. It wasn't easy on her. I had extreme guilt leaving her under the weather and dog conditions.
To be honest things were a little better before me leaving. Not that they are bad now. but things leveled off after I got home. Maybe the honeymoon phase wore off
