I am so very sorry for your loss. I am also so sorry that you had to hear your W's hurtful words.
I can empathize with how tremendously difficult this situation is: my parent is terminally ill and is fading. I know what it is like to want the one person you love to give you some love and comfort - and they have none to give. it is like the BD all over again. Sometimes I feel like getting through a day is like moving through a molasses fog.
This may sound trite, but take care of yourself at this time as best you can. Take care of your son. Lean into those quiet, private moments. Go to bed early if you can. Lean on your family who will be grieving alongside you. Bring Kleenex everywhere you go.
