Been up and down on this roller coaster and the ride is making me sick. I don't know how some of you can do this for years and years, I admire those who do. H left 7months ago and is rapidly moving the divorce forward. He came over this weekend to go over the proposed divorce decree with me, the first time I have seen him since he left.
The meeting was pleasant, we talked for 1 1/2 hrs just like two old friends catching up. I did the whole "As if..." technique, had a smile on my face the whole time and I must admit I looked really good. He commented multiple times on how good I looked, said I looked 'better than he had ever seen me'. He also said he could see the positive change in me and that he wanted the happiness that I seemed to have. I shared that my stronger relationship with God and his transformation in me was the main difference. I know I shocked him several times when I said something positive in response to his comments instead of being critical and negative like before -- the look on his face was priceless. Overall, I was very happy with the meeting. I am glad he noticed my changes, hopefully it planted some seeds in him for change.
He said he appreciated how I have handled the separation/D so far and also that I cared about him and our marriage. He said his mind has not changed about D, that he just woke up one day and realized that there 'should be more to life' and that 'life is too short'. He said he wasn't ever miserable and he still loved me but we were just too different with nothing in common. I think he is in mid-life crisis. Keeping faith and giving it to God.
M: 38yo, H: 44yo Together:10yrs Married: 6yrs No kids BD 8/15/12 H walked-out 8/18/12
