There is something empowering about it. My x can't drive a manual and I LOVE driving manuals. She always said I would get her hand me down cars. I don't necessarily think she meant it in a bad way.. but at the same time, it's something that has always stuck with me in a negative way.
I often wonder how much of us buying her things was because I loved her and wanted her to have it vs. knowing that I couldn't have it. My guess is that the truth lies sometime in the middle.
Regardless, It feels like a new chapter... and an exciting one. Not everything from this experience has to be negative.. if we chose it to be so.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
