I completely get what you mean about if real H could see himself. My H was really upset by the affairs that happened with our friends, even when it was just a kiss. He didn't want to know anything about it because he felt obligated to tell the other spouse. So I did not get why not D me, and then carry on his player/bachelorhood when he is so morally opposed to cheating. We dropped friendship with both of these couples because everything with them was so crazy and dramatic and draining.

I think that's why it's easier if he is not around. I have this board I can vent to and get the thoughts I have about him out of my mind, and then carry on with life outside of it and not have to keep thinking about it. Once I write it out, I have an easier time not letting my mind idle back to it.

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M38,H39
M:16Y
BD:8/12
OWDB:11/12
S:11/12-5/13
"Temp" home:6/13
OW dropped:9/13
"I love you":12/13
H ring on:2/14
Depression back:5/15
"I'm done:" 7/15
H moved out: 3/16
H moved back: 12/16
Working on us: 3/17