Have been reading your stuff for awhile, and it truly amazes me how strong you are. Pregnancy is still pretty fresh in my mind, and I can't imagine dealing with my H's MLC on top of it. It is so exhausting... Plus you are taking care of three kids and working! Amazing!
I found it interesting when you wrote about possible triggers for the crisis. It sounds like it wasn't just one thing, more like a perfect storm of factors. (Which is the same with my H). None of the things you listed really have anything to do with you. But I know you know that already
And the whole OW thing... It royally svcks. I always think - if H (real H!) could see himself, he would be mortified. There are so many different emotions with it. I guess I expect to have the typical anger, hurt, sadness, disappointed and disgust. But, part of me does feel bad for him. That he would cheapen himself like that makes me mad and embarrassed for him. That he would need to do something so drastic that could cost him everything he once held dear just to escape the pain he's feeling breaks my heart. It really does.
Your H can try to pretend there isn't a baby coming all he wants. Reality will hit him hard soon... That baby doesn't give a rat's a$$ about your H's crisis, it's coming into this world when he/she is ready! (Couldn't remember if you knew gender or not)
Hang in there. You seem like such a wonderful person, and I do feel bad that you are here. You most certainly deserve better.
Please take care of yourself. Like Snodderly always says, let him blow in the wind. Focus on you and your boys. And of course that precious little one who will be arriving soon
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
