Ya know, I have often thought to myself that nothing short of her own free will would make her want to return and try again despite being hurt. I have learned tht it is choice that you make. However, I can't SAY that to her....and if I CAN please tell me HOW because I am very careful about coming across as a know-it-all.
So many times I want to tell her that a LOT of things happened in the course of this ordeal that really hurt me, made me question her, that burned me to the core and yet I still am trying to forgive and make the most of today and the days in the future. I do that because I CHOOSE to....not because I am superhuman, or because I was never hurt by anything. It's just that the good she and S bring to my life outweighs the bad....it's not even close. There are moments when I think she feels this way, too....but they are fleeting. And then, she retreats. At times I think she is waiting for a bolt of lightening to come out and make it stone easy to feel and come home again. How can I talk to her about that? Can I?
