I feel that things got worse and he started acting more down when I began having less contact - he noticed and commented how I seemed to have pulled away. I feel like this is more of the same of how he feels he got into the bad mode over the last year, because I wasn't there emotionally etc.
I realize I can't talk him out of anything. But I'd like him to know I am here and do care - that I backed off to work on myself (and probably to avoid being hurt more, but I can't tell him that)
Honestly, some issues I'm not sure how to deal with - the trust and always feeling like people will leave. Letting my guard down. I have been working on listening better. And the control issue - several times lately I've gone along with days he wanted D rather than the days I suggested.
I'm getting more involved at church. Tonight I'm going to a small group, excited about starting that. And my hobby business is doing well.
