Still confused...about everything.

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Snodderly,
I am very happy I called her too. We caught up and shared a few laughs on the phone call. She also doesn't believe her son would not want to be involved, but is prepared to be there if he does bail in some way or another. I feel much better knowing I have her there for this situation...and other situations if I need her.

AJ-You are right about asking for more help...my coworker/friend has offered to help me where she can as well. So Plan C is in place as well.

Can you see the stress in your life?

Yes I can...I guess it is all catching up to me emotionally...I feel like I pack it away sometimes and then it bust out full force when it is too much. Think of the closet where you keep stuffing and stuffing and then one day the doors bust open and it falls out. LOL!

To have a roller-coaster of emotions at this time and situation in your life is not abnormal. Perhaps it's new to you, but it's very normal to have these reactions. It makes you sick, physically as well. Or it can at any rate.

Emotional rollercoaster riding is new to me...I was always so composed and known to get things done, now not so much. And yes, while I believe those feelings are starting to surface, I know the love is still there that i will feel differently tomorrow....trying to take it day by day. Guess I was caught up in the moment chatting with my friend.

Letting go is not my strong suit as I am trying to hold onto whatever that hasn't been ripped from me...but I think I can start letting things slide for a little while instead of feeling like I need to immediately handle them...baby steps I know, but hopefully I will get there.