Thanks AS..I didn't know I would ever feel this way. You're absolutely right about me focusing 100% on the M and 0% on me. When I started to focus on me, GAL and try to heal from the A w/OW, all of those raw emotions that I surpressed from H just surfaced. I remember all the time I asked him nothing and he offered nothing but snide remarks and condescending jesters. All the IDLY, we are not compatiable, I have more things in common with OW, I'm in love w/OW, This marriage is dead, I dislike coming home, 16ys is nothing if you're not happy,the secret phone lines and secret FB accounts, the pictures w/OW and her kids, the dinners, the ring and roses he gave her, the protecting inlaws, etc. etc. I didn't think about it then but boy does those words ring loud in my ear now. Even my SIL's are trying to apologize for supporting him in his A. I take your advice and think seriously about seeking counseling. I need to be done with this. I can't believe it is consuming so much of my life.
