I got this email just now from my W. I Would like some input on it, as I feel it probably pertains to what everyone is saying right now about my sitch and how I am handling myself....
Thank you for the invite. I appreciate the attempt. I haven't been sleeping well and I am not feeling great. I am sure it's just stress pilling up and I will be fine. Your invite does leave me a little confused. I am sure you may not notice, but in front of other people you really distance yourself and act like you can't stand me. You say you want to be friends and then you send me this horrible text. You throw these get togethers, invite my family and friends and then the only reason I get an invite is because I put you on the spot and ask you if (Daughter) is welcome up there if she sees her friends. Then you tell everyone you invited me and I choose not to go. ( You know I wont take a last minute invite like that from anyone). I just am really confused by you and your actions. I would like to be friends but I don't want to be hurt by anyone else.I am extremely guarded right now. I second guess and question everything & everyone. I don't know how to be friends with you when I don't feel the friendship is sincere
Here is my reply,
I would like to speak with you about this. I have a lot of the same feelings as you do....i really would like to get passed this portion of our lives. The confusion and stress is breaking me down as well....it shouldn't be happening to us. The lack of trust, the alienation, the miss-understandings.....its all too much. Everything is so out of control and i don't like it. It sounds like you don't either. If you would like, we can get together sometime....let me know
after this we exchanged a couple more texts and agreed to meet for coffee on Wednesday. This will be our first one on one encounter since BD. I am not even sure what to discuss....
