Journaling Over the last two days H and I have cried...he welled up we'll say....me over everything, him over God, we had a meal together, we sat in the same room for hours and looked at each other in the eyes as we spoke.
This is more than we've done in 3 months! I was so warn out I had him massage my hands, (he actually touched me) as I turned away to go to my room he got up, gave me some water and an Advil in bed, turned off the light as he said goodnight!
I am truly living with an alien who is visiting from his mothership. He said he's going nowhere, we're not breaking up this M, and I am to continue standing as he maintains his self-loth and spiritual battle, oh and he want to be left alone.
Well, ok then! Really? How about I just take a long bath and not dwell on his words tonight anymore! He even stayed home from work tonight, not sure what that's about, going to get those bubbles ready, and search for my sanity!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
