I know exactly what I want now. I had no idea what I wanted before. Why did I have no idea? Because I never sat down and thought about it. I lived the life that happened to me. I now happen to life, it doesn't happen to me.
That is a tough, life lesson that some people never learn. That is truly awesome, for you.
Keep remembering that we can change ourselves and control things... we can not control people... what ever happens with X2 or X1 for that matter, will be.
Just continue to make sure that your life plans are about you... changing you... becoming a better person than you already were...
And be sure to eventually allow, rather than force, a place for someone else to join you... whoever... and whenever... that might be...
