Thanks for all the comments. I knew the jealousy card was wrong but couldn't resist. I have read all cadets info, and I am working on things. I also feel like the anti-d is mot helping and have read some things but not a true controlled study.
The one valid comment she makes is I need to gal. I'm working on that as best I can. I feel I'm between a rock and a hard place. I've been responsible for cooking, homework, laundry, bedtime routine, etc for so long it leaves little time in the evening for anything else. Its almost a role reversal from the old traditional family.
She keeps saying I need to get back to coaching ball. I am planning to coach my S9 baseball team this spring. I travel out of town a day or two a week for work and usually have a night a week spent in a meeting at church. What time I do have is spent with my boys playing something. And I enjoy that. They're fun and I get satisfaction in teaching them how to play sports.
My counselor has heard more of the details than I can post here and he said she wants someone she can cheer for again. Maybe the coaching will help. If not i may start training for marathons.
M - 42 W- 37 S's - 9,6 M-12 T-14 FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011 ILYBNILWY - march '12 FIL - died jan '13 W Moved out week later
