Having one of those strange days where you are ok with the situation, kind of, but the other part of you keeps asking why the H can do this to the family? Why set our daughter up for a life of choosing between parents and all that goes with it (my parents divorced when I was about 6, so I know how it goes, even with having 2 loving parents) - why do this when it seems like it's just because f a power struggle between us, being stubborn, etc?
I've really tried to be understanding about so much. Letting him help with decisions, etc. I feel like I've given a lot. And lately we just seem further apart, mostly since I went a little more dark. So partly my 'fault' but now there is little conversation, no hugs. I still have not spoke with him about things I brought up in previous posts that I want to talk to him about. Feel like I need to set up a time for us to 'talk' but that goes against all of this. Thoughts?
I found out yesterday how much we are getting back on taxes. Not a lot, but more than usual. I told him and he actually said to put it towards a credit card - I was shocked. But then today he comes to pick up D and says, oh, how about buying a tablet for me so he can take the MacBook? That way he wouldn't be running his data plan over each month. Uh, how about not!! I was just kind of quiet and he said I guess you don't agree. I said not really. But that he could use the computer, take it with him, sometimes. I have to have it for my side business - but not every night. And there are 2 computers at his parents. I swear he spends his evenings in the dungeon of his basement bedroom at his parents on his phone. Go do something! Guess that is when he isn't at practice with one of 3 bands - and another group that he told me yesterday he jams with - because his other bands don't practice enough - now that made me giggle.
Needed to vent a little. Just feeling like this is all going no where.
