"I kind of despise myself for not being mad enough and wanting to forgive so fast. "
Seriously? Your behavior has shown that you didn't "forgive" her for anything. In fact, her reasons were valid and were not "wrong". Once you actually start looking things through her eyes, you'll stop wondering what to do and know. Gotta agree with this^^ Bruce. Your furious rage about the "Divorce settlement' was about a TEMPORARY support order, Bruce.
She had nothing in writing before, right? So of course the court ordered her to get half. FOR NOW...hence the judge admitting he had not read the file. He simply issues a temporary order...so, given that, what's there to make you so mad, NOW?
" how do I start this new episode? "
You actually start doing what everyone's been recommending you do. Especially 25's suggestions. You focus on yourself and your son and you start developing compassion and understanding for your W.
Yeah well, obviously I agree. I think your paradigm must make a serious shift Bruce. You kinda still don't get it...really.
Are you in counselling for you?
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
