Gonna be different now, (butterfly in hurricane).

[Big Bruce]

Hi everybody,
I spent the week-end close to Banff, in the rockies, to help me forget.
HollyAnn, I was impressed with the golden uterus women, and I can certainly see some traits in my W. She isn't all the way GU though, and I want to believe that she'll be more reasonable in the (near) future. Thank you for your understanding though, it puts balm on my heart.

With my proposed email (which I won't send), I guess I wanted to score points, showing that I wasn't mad (even if...no comment).
The stuff I was recalling (the log book for S activities, the parenting course, the picking up) were stuff we discussed and agreed on Thursday during our meeting with our two Ls, the day before the hearing (which was Friday). I probably won't get a bonus point at this moment for showing myself reasonable and conciliatory...

I kind of despise myself for not being mad enough and wanting to forgive so fast. I mean, it's the way I am, I am uncapable of holding a grudge for more than two hours. Even during our M, I would soften in ten minutes while W would stay mad for days. I don't even know how it is possible to keep a grudge for more than a day.

Anyway, the court order runs through end of June for now, but the judge (who by the way admitted he didn't read the files...) said that obviously everything would need to be re-discussed at the pre-trial anytime after June. And W can legally ask for D anytime after 18 June... so I don't know at the moment if time is my friend or plays against me.

So, whenever I have a contact with W, I'll try to show myself not concerned about the money matters. Showing myself sullen won't help my cause.

As for a third party to transmit the info that now W will have to drop S, who can that be? My L? Her L? Her parents? Isn't a short email simpler and less sneaky?

Finally, the holding the stick expression, I only meant, how do I start this new episode? The dynamic has radically changed now, and I need help in defining the base for my adapted behavior.

Have a good beginning of week everyone,
Bruce