Slash back again.... I just got a phone call from my ex, asking me to please be a friend right now... He said he draw a map in his head and once everything is settled with the kids( University funding for the oldest, braces for the third and status for all 4 ), he will no longer be part of this world.. He is done... He doesn' t want to work on anything.. He said EVERYTHING from his past, starting at childhood has crashed onto him and he doesn' t want to fix any of it... He is tired and he is done.... I tried to tell him that i knew of his past and i accepted him with it.. I stood by him and we had 18 yrs together.. He cut me off and mocked our relationship... I could feel monster on the ledge so i shut-up and listened... He ended the call with: " i shouldn' t have called you.. " He was depressed and crying.. I had a hard time understanding him.. He might have been feeling good from drinking but he wasn' t drunk.. It is hard to listen and at the same time, guard yourself from pain... WHAT A NIGHT... May God be by his side tonight.. WHY CAN' T WE HELP????? I' m worried sick...
