Still confused...about everything.

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Thanks Snodderly,

And yes, I hunk following his lead is exactly what I need to do for everything for a little bit...I have been initiating contact and H has too, but I think I am going to leave it all up to him ... I am going to try this for a few and see how things go.

I did notice that you didn't give any advice either way if I should ask him or not...guess that is understandable since evrything is so much in the air...

H did text me this morning saying he enjoyed our outing yesterday...which I guess is a good thing since 1-he initiated it and 2-it was just him and I and our two boys for 10 hours yesterday.

I am hoping these family outing experiences would show him what he is missing, but at the same time I often wonder if it is the right thing to do as it allows him to have his two worlds, family man and single man. I think I am going to cut back on these as well, as yesterday while I enjoyed myself too, it just keeps me from gal'ing because all I want is our family like that full time, and while the experiences are wonderful, I come home at night and set back into my reality that he is gone. It is so hard because of the boys, because I know they want that, and love it when we are all together, but I wonder if it is the right thing to do....