3 Months in, Still fighting. Crunch time!

[Tallula]

I hope you go back and reread what everyone has said. You have some really wonderful vets that have taken the time to try and help, and then you discount the suggestions because the sitchs here are very dysfunctional, while you are not. Thanks, but im only going to listen to the things that are in line with my thinking. But, give me advise on this thing ive decided needs work on.

The hardest thing to do in life is to look at you when someone else's faults are SO glaring. The courage that these "dysfunctional" people on these boards has shown me, is truely amazing. It would be easy to just look at my H and say, geez, when he figures this out he'll come crawling back because he had it so good. I mean, comparatively, he did. I'm an attractive personal training, mother of 2. I am active sexually, fun, do most everything around the house, have similar hobbies. We have a blast together. He has said this. There is something wrong with me, you are amazing. His friends are floored that he would even think of leaving me. True story. But I'm not perfect. We've been together a long time, and I need to look at M and my life differently. I look at this sitch as a wake up call. Live more authentically, more in the moment. Reading DR was life changing for me. It's a chance to work on being the best me I can. Ever story here gives me hope. Each one! Of course I hope my M works.

I hope your M works out. All of us do. I will echo that it doesn't seem like I can help at all either. Good luck!