Valeria - I remember you well, since I used to post under another name. I think you are a widow, and need to honour your feelings as such.

My xh's MLC has taken a huge toll on his health, and I saw him again recently. He has never expressed a wish to reconcile, but we do get along these days, and I feel a deep affection for him.

I am so sorry for your loss - like you I have never met anyone that I feel I could love like I loved my xh.

My thoughts and prayers are with you, and I am so glad that you came back to this forum. We should never underestimate a severe MLC - it is a very destructive thing, and the horrible behaviour is a symptom of a volcano underneath. We just got caught up in an emotional catastropshe.

Hugs to you. A