I truly do feel like a widow, but without the condolences from family and friends, so I appreciate your kind words and prayers.
My XH's death has hit me hard. I have gone through a lot in the past few years, including the death of my parents, but nothing has hit me quite this bad.
My ex never remarried after our divorce. He often said that he would never get married again .. unless it was to me. My ex was only 56 years old .. way to young to leave this world.
So sorry for your loss, being a little older I can truly understand the power of midlife and what it does to our bodies.
It is truly a time of change and many can not survive its tremendous force. The weakest parts of the body are tested and attacked.
I only write this so you can some how find some peace. I am sorry that he could not find his way back home to you.
Please go back to basic DB101 and the stages of grief and take care of yourself. Rejoice the marriage that you had prior to MLC as no one can take that part away from YOU. Then make some small goals to move forward from here.
We are many peoples family and friends here. You are truly a widow now.
