Update....got an unexpected bouquet of flowers from H for St. Valentine's Day. But the promised phone call never came.

On a totally outrageously surprisingly note got a call about a job a few days ago and have an interview for Tuesday. This is totally out of the blue as I really hadn't been looking. The $$$ is much needed to pay off some debts and maybe work towards more stability for me and the children. I consider this job opportunity the foundation of my GAL activities.

Yes I was committed to being home with the kids but we must have more income and H cannot be counted on for that. We drove to the job location today just to see where I need to go and not be late. The kids were impressed. It'a big regional bank (not one of the evil ones) and the job could be very stable for me. The pay is excellent. It would really boost our standard of living and allow me to pay off debts. And the best part is that I do it without H.

Also, gearing up for a very important step with my church--confirmation. I'm going to be studying for that. It's very exciting because the bishop performing the confirmation is a personal "hero" of mine. Me and my children will be together. This will be one of the most important days of my life. Too bad H won't be there--he really had no interest so it's better he isn't there to ruin it with his cruddy attitude.

I'm not missing him at all.

I did make the decision to go dark for 30 days.


M: 44
H: 49
4 children from previous R (3 @ home, 1 in college)
M: 4
S: 12/12
H wants to come home: 2/13