Still confused...about everything.

[BRNR]

Journaling, seeking advice.

Okay, I have just realized that I have allowed myself to become the pursuer today and am feeling the negative emotional consequences from it, and a feeling of rejection from H. Back story to today's events...

I had planned on taking my kids to hibachi and bowling and s9 asked H if he would go with us. I said it was okay and H did come out. This morning H started sending flirty text messages, and I responded with flirts back. The text exchanges went on throughout the day even though we were physically in each others presence. Well, one of the last text messages I sent was alluding to going out on a date and H agreed, but I said he needed to ask me out. His response...."a guy gets confidence when a girl ask him out". My response was to say "a girl likes to know she has a chance and the guy has interest".

I know, I messed up....shouldn't have responded. I guess now I am unsure if because he says that's what he wants should I ask him, or should I just wait and see....reminder, H's issues with me are that I should him a lack of affection and attention. Now I already have a perfect opportunity without my boys in a couple of weeks to be able to do ask him to dinner without our sons, but don't know what to do....

Any advice? Half of me says yes, but the other half says no...for those who don't know what is going on with me please read my prior thread...