Thanks SBR - I see it the same way....my mom said I can't go oh darn....shoot! He even went as far as putting his shoes on.....to fall asleep in a chair! I crave a mature relationship, my kids are older than my h, I can only express it here how much I am sick of this, no one can relate. I feel my guts in knots over how much I want out of this life.

Gang bangers, really, we left the city so our kids wouldn't got to school with any city troubles, now I have to worry about my 53yr old H. I want far away from all of this! Sorry, it's a bad night!

Thanks for posting I appreciate ever word everyone writes here!

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The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!