Bring It On 2013

[BeingMe]

I don't know why, but today I'm feeling lonely. All friends are away for whatever reason, S25 and D20 are out, H didn't want to come home for the weekend - says there's a vibe. Only in his head. But, I hope I wasn't subconsciously relying on his company this weekend.

I think I should speed up the divorce, after all. H should move out. I feel I'm in a place of "I-don't-know". I don't have my H's emotional support and physical presence, or complete physical/emotional/psychological divorce and alimony. I don't have a structure in place so I can know where I stand. I'm just floating around, not wanting to date until I'm divorced. Yet, how tempting is that - to meet some men that I could hang out with. I'm shy so I don't even know how to do that, so I sit at home, alone on weekends, and I hate it.

~sigh~ I'll get on with my homework.