Crazy story: I feel like maybe I was just used as a buffer or maybe an instrument. My H approached me with almost an ultimatum saying I need to help ea find an apt or h will have to go fight her gang member landlord who is threatening to shoot her in the head. He even went as far as saying he's going up there tonight to confront him and he will probably be killed, so he's going to leave his cell on my voicemail as a witness.
He said he's struggling with the light from this family and the darkness of "that" world. He want's both! He said maybe God will then finally intervene if he's facing death. I say He just did because my only response was, this is your path I will not chose for you nor get involved. Then he said I took the fight out of him and now he doesn't feel the power of his anger to take him to a fight.
He then said can she come here for a few days to keep her safe while she makes calles for an apt. Again, I said this family wants nothing to do with your journey.
I think he used me to hold him back, keep him home, he had to of known my answer and now he's justified in backing out because he's been weakened by me. Telling me was his safe word - IMO!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
