Hi everyone, the past few days have been quiet for me at the home. about 2 weeks ago i got into another argument with my husband because he was talking divorce again. I agreed to it but on one condition, he needs to pay for my move back to the USA. He owes my family some money and did not support my move to Japan so both me and my family think this is a fair trade of if a D if what he really wants.
He didnt like that idea and asked "why do I have to pay?" i could list all the reasons here but its a waste of writing space. I am so sad that he cant remember everything i went through to come be with him in Japan. Its more sad that he cant remember what happened when he lived in seattle with me and my family. I guess this is a bi product of depression but sometimes its hard to believe.
Since then if he brings up the D i simply tell him that we have already discussed this and my terms are not negotiable. He hasnt talked about it since then.
there is alot of ups and downs with him, some days he is okay and we can do some small things together like rent movies. This weekend we watched some together and ate Ramen (japanese noodle soup) together.
It just doesnt make much sense to me, if a D is REALLY what he wants then I dont think he would even bother being at home with me, he would go live with his brother on the other side of town, or with a friend. I dont think he would bother renting movies with me or eating meals with me. I have to remind myself of this daily when he is not making sense.
Anyway, im not talking to him about it or anything else personal for that matter, i have a vacation coming up next week so i will have two weeks away from him to visit my Grandma in the Philippines. Im a bit dreadful of whats going to happen when i get back if anything.
