To answer your qu: I am ashamed and humiliated by what stbx is doing.
I am not ashamed of my own actions. Perhaps i should be, but I feel like I have done little to be ashamed of.
What am I really afraid of - stbx getting away with every asset that the kids, my parents' and I once owned. Leaving us destitute.
The prom went well - in the sense that D17 looked gorgeous and had a good time.
She arranged with MIL to get their more up-market car to ferry her and her date to the before-party.
This worked well because it meant MIL and FIL both had to drop by to deliver the car (so I could drive D17 to the before-party, that parents were attending, too).
So she had someone else other than me and S14 to oohh and ahhh over her!
Her father was MIA, even though she had begged him to let us drive our family car to pick up her date (a boy she hadn't met before the night). He had refused and this is when MIL stepped in to offer her car.
At the party, I felt a bit like a sore thumb. Everyone else was there with respective spouses. No-one mentioned stbx to me so i presume they all know.
I try to focus, on occasions like these, on experiencing the moment, because i find it all too easy to zone out into a state of dwelling on how awful it is that stbx is missing the occasion. And worrying about how diminished the event is for D17... and so on. Have to fight against this all the time - still!
Took S14 to rowing this morning and his crew won another gold medal in their school boy event. He is so pleased and proud.
We all came home and crashed on sofas/beds. Totally exhausted.
