Confused by WAS

[Grizz]

Thanks AS. Sometimes having someone sympathize with you and understand your sitch helps.
Random thoughts:
Being in limbo is absolutely awful! I have no idea how to act. W says she can't read me anymore. I agreed with her. I said I can't read myself. I really need to work on getting back to my old self. I am a very happy person and truly the life of the party (that sounds weird saying that about myself because I am also not someone used to saying stuff like that about myself). I am definitely in a funk and need to get out of it.

W has been crying more lately. Not sure why.

Last night W was in our bed watching tv. She said she better go to the couch to sleep. Says she doesn't feel as lonely when she is in the other room. She feels more lonely sleeping beside me. Kinda wierd to me. After she told me she was leaving I leaned over to give a small half hug and said goodnight. She then layed down on my chest and hugged me. She stayed there. We ML. She stayed in our bed all night. Confused, confused, confused!

We agreed to get each other something for valentines day. Mostly so the kids would not think anything was off. I was expecting something "generic" from her but instead she got me a very thoughtful gift. No mention of love but something that I really liked and was very unexpected.

W texted me alot on valentines day about nothing specific. Seemed like she just wanted to talk. The next day she was fairly cold and distant. This is one of the things I have the most trouble with. My emotions definitely mirrors hers. I have to get away from this.

W is a very unhappy person right now. She seems unhappy about everything. Unhappy with work, me, the kids, her friends, she wants a new car. I would love to help her out of this but I am at a loss but most importantly she does not want my help.

Did I mention that being in limbo is awful?! She still says she does not know what she wants but all of her actions say she is done.