Nero- you are coming into yourself leaps and bounds here! But, Snodderly is right this is for you, you feel better it sounds like, you feel better for you! Your h will and can see that in you and watch from under the covers as you blossom. It will be up to him though what he's going to do with this new you.

I'm so glad to hear you feeling better! Spring will be bringing some new blossoms with it in you and me, and I hope other LBS here who struggle. I feel stronger and I do speek out more and share my feelings so I don't get down. I find that if it's about me and not H people respond more.

Turning in for my movie night...I'm starting to enjoy my nights and it helps to not be around H first thing in the morning! Keep moving forward!

The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!