Snodderly I cracked a bit. I came home and h wanted to give me a hug. I didn't hug him back. Went to the church fish fry and he told me he wanted to spend the day with me wanted things to change(I have been through this with him before) said how bad things have been for him and I told him I got my own crap to deal with because of him and I don't want to listen. I told him I'm about done that I'm tired of being played and its been goin on for a year. I told him I knew he was talkin to ow did not say how. Told him I knew he wants to get her away from boyfriend. He denies and says she has her own life . Says there is nothing between them! What a lie! He will not directly answer my questions about speaking to her. I told him he underestimated me. I would not be accusing him unless I knew. So every time I asked if he spoke to her he just went back to "there's nothing going on". I said ok what if I pull the priest aside and have you tell me that in his presence? How bout with your hand on the bible? Said nothing.
I told him I was looking at a stranger. Someone I don't know. That there is something seriously wrong with him to live this dual life and lie to me. Told him he disgraced the family name and his dad would be so upset if he were alive. There we were at the noisy fish fry and having this talk. And I said because you will not come forward with the truth I have nothing further to discuss. I can't do this any more. Wanted me to go to stations of the cross and I said I can't you go. I couldn't take the denial anymore and I told him I had to go. Got up and walked home.That was a half hour ago. Who knows where he is. I just couldn't be quiet. I really don't know this man. I also asked him why he didn't tell his mom the real reason why we were having trouble and he said because I wasn't thinking it was over. Really? Then why tell her at all. He said He told everyone i wanted him to about thr affair without blinking an eye. True but he's been carrying on for a year without blinking an eye. Agh!!!!!!!! My sister said I could come over but I may stay here. See what plays out. Is this midlife madness or what?
