as i was just "being busy" -it occurs to me, maybe qwhat's bugging me today (aside from rain &dreary) is the realization that
our futures are totally unknown at this moment; our past that we knew and loved so well may have not even been what we thought-
the "old" h or w wwe loved is (possibly? or definitely) gone forever
the "new" (revamped - old h) one we may connect with or not- might not be one we want to connect with... even
so we can db til the cows come home and we may end up with nothin anyway. IF OUR OLD S is truly gone forever and whoever is the replacement is just not going to do...
it's all the uncertainty- on top of a few years of intense uncertainty- that make a girl feel - - well, uncertain
