now that i think further- if he is unwilling to accomodate you on this- have you got some people - friend, relatives to be able to consider your backup so you feel you'll have support if he flakes out?
i didn't mean to sound all pushy about it- when i submitted it- i then felt "who the heck do I THINK I AM? ANYWAY?" he could really do anhything and i don't know this guy at all.
what in the world does my opinion count for anyway? oh well -
i feel like a jerk now, thiss is the worst part of this mlc junk - our "rock" in life is gone or sinking fast. all of us -
It's THE WORST PART - FOR ALL OF US. i think this is the real problem with being in a sitch like yours and others that are or could be hair raising-
we feel alone - i've wondered if that's the overtone of all tragic events in our lives- that no matter what, who, is there or is going on- WE FEEL all ALONE AND THAT is awful - because nothing anyone can do (other than the one we want) is "enough" but we're forced to swallow it.
anyway- i hope you're hanging in there okay today - you can and will conquer this ALL one way or the other - you've come a long long way in a rather short-ish time - but you sound like you have alot of inner strength and belief in your convictions.
