Living, Getting the Paperwork Started (20 months)

[adinva]

Yeah Acc I knew you would
Two, I'm going to come back on here with my million dollar formula as soon as I have it perfected.

I left out something and woke up feeling like I should come clean.

I really lost my SH%T yesterday before H came over. I am really struggling. I had this thing that had to be done that day and no reason why it couldnt except that the program was acting up and the internet at home wasn't helping, and it turned into a 2 hour exercise in futility where I was getting madder and madder and S12 needed shirts so bad and we wouldn't be able to shop again until next Tuesday and I had scouts at 7:30 which I could blow off except I promised a trip leader I'd be there with checks and my window was closing and I couldn't get the stupid constantcontact to stick with the updates I had put in umpteen times and I just plain lost my SH%T. S15 came down and said what you need is a dog and he plopped 50-pound younger dog on the table with muddy paws and he walked on S12's homework so S12 flipped out and washed his homework in the sink and ruined it more completely. I was yelling at the universe just to let off steam and I wasn't actually mean to them but they're not used to me even losing my patience. I had a chat with S12 all the way to the store because he was piling on and I wasn't able to tolerate it, and he was frustrated with me, but we muscled through it and got him 5 t-shirts that fit. When we headed home I learned the scout meeting was 6:30 and not 7:30 so I had missed it and now had my hour back, and when we got home we were calm and happy again. That's where H came in.

But I feel ashamed for losing it so badly and wish that just venting and complaining would get me past this bad patch.