Glad your friends were supportive, you should give them a call. There's a time to be stoic, and a time to let it all out. You've been in pain for a long time and there is virtue in accepting compassion from friends. I found my friends to be very supportive and that was heartwarming.
Accuray
Married 18, Together 20, Now Divorced M: 48, W: 50, D: 18, S: 16, D: 12 Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 7/13/11 Start Reconcile: 8/15/11 Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 5/1/2014 (Divorced) In a New Relationship: 3/2015