Thank you, Subguy! I've been so busy calling L's and financial advisors, and the insurance companies. Crazy.
I was listening to an audio book today that really hit home. The speaker said that when a R is toxic and you know it's not good for you, it's hard to take a step and leave it. But there is something you can do: One, to imagine that you're cutting the cords of the toxic areas of that R, so only the love and peace are left behind, and then realize that because you can't be what God wants you to be on Earth bc of this relationship, you must leave it, or at least leave the toxic parts of it.
My H emailed me a curt financial message today, so I wrote: "Thank you, H. Today might not be my best V-day ever, but I still send you love and wishes for peace and comfort."
I am following my philosophy to always send love, not expecting to get anything in return, and also to send him away to find his path and mature with love, because his presence in my life doesn't let me be who I am meant to be.
He replied:
"Thank you, W. You should know that even though we aren’t together anymore (and I don’t intend this to be a mixed message), and this might not be your best valentine’s day ever, and even with our relationship being over, understand that I do love you and care about your well-being and want you to have peace and comfort in your life as well. You’ve been an important and meaningful part of my life and I’m grateful for all the love and kindness we’ve shared over the years. Even if we aren’t together, I have and always will love you in a special way. Love, H."
Which shows how when you relentlessly give love, you usually receive love. It's not guaranteed, but it happens. I anticipate he'll be angry and confused and even scared when he gets the D agreement, so I'll continue practicing my philosophy and see where it takes me. This is the premise of the book I'm writing.
