I fear my attitude is merely some sort of self defense. I can't wait around for him. For me, standing is a one-way ticket to unhappiness. Not that I need someone but I just can't bear to be treated this way.

I'm so sorry you are in such limbo. Our situations are so different. And despite all the shenanigans of your H, I think you have a better shot at pulling through than I do. Mine is completely gone. Hasn't wanted to spend a moment alone with me at all since he moved out.

Know that I think of you often...

Peace,
GG

You're braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.
-Christopher Robin to Pooh

Romans 12:12 Rejoice in your hope, be patient in suffering, persevere in prayer.