I just noticed that the success are less than 10% than the D rate from looking at the threads and more successes are H coming back... I am depressed.
You are like me during the first 3 months of my sitch. Obsessed with the outcome. You have to let go of that. Easier said than done and I admit I sometimes fallback into such a state. But you can't let it rule you. You need to do the things folks on this site are recommending (GAL, 180s) and then you won't be doing the math problem you described.
You also might want to create more achievable shorter term goals for yourself.
