Today is a day of mixed emotions, I created a lovely homemade Valentines Day card from Dad and the boys. Not a thank you or HVD to me. She did post on facebook that “she is sharing the love for valentines day” but none of that was directed to me. I understand that she is angry but it is no excuse to be mean. I have been friendly to her with casual conversation and some days she is receptive others she is not.
I am having trouble trying not to read her mind because I really want to make it work. Sometimes I wonder why I should try so hard because treats me with no respect and has hurt me greatly. I guess I want to make it work for the kids.. they are my world and the thought of not being there daily for them is hard to accept. Especially if she shacks up with another guy & by default he gets to spent more time with the boys than I do.
Sandi2 I will take your advise that I need to stop trying to be a psychic because im not a mind reader and it usually turns into negative thoughts.
We have a viewing for the sale of the house tomorrow. The reality of our home selling is not a good feeling. I feel it would be more challenging for it to work if we are in separate places but then maybe some real space between us might make her realize how awesome I am and try to make an effort to reconcile the marriage.
In this separation marathon she wants to run flat out where I would like us to go at a jogging pace. Time will tell if it will be a Turtle and the Hare fable...
For now I will focus on keeping my patience no matter how mean she is. Love my boys the best I can. Continue improving my mind, body and sole. Make so that she would be a fool to leave such a caring, positive individual for her and the boys.
Glad the Motorcycle show is here this weekend. Its going to be great to hang out with my buddys to drool and talk about bikes!
H 37 WAW 32 S 4 (Autistic) S 2 Together 11 years Married 6 Bombshell Dec 1 2012 House sold, flying solo June 1 2013.
