First I want to thank - 25yearsmlc, AnotherStander, labug, MrBond, RegretfulLA, suckerpunch, sandi2, sweetbabyred, beat up, sam4nh, GH31 and Dewayne For all of the great advice and honest responses! They are hard to hear, but absolutely needed!
I finally am starting to see that I need to wake up and get my crap together, start doing my 180's and working my DB. I am noticing how much closer I am getting to my girls and how great that feels. I am going to the gym and that is also a good feeling. I am not at the point where I can see myself being "OK" alone, but working to get there. This is by far the hardest, most challenging thing I have been through in my life. I have done so much wrong, I have wasted so much time, I had the opportunity of a lifetime with my W and I wasted it. I was a horrible husband, a poor father for so long. I am now on the right track and it is hard, but I can feel now, I can see what I have missed and I want it, badly. The start of a long hard road... phew! Again I cant thank Sanid2 and Anotherstander enough for your time and input and being so patient with me!
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
