Yeah, believe me I don't mention the "satanic" thing to anyone. But that's the best way I know how to explain it.
Why am I struggling... hmmmm...
I do love him, I'm afraid of making a mistake, I'm scared of being alone, I have to move, missing my animals that I wouldn't be able to take with me right now, I have to find a new job, I have to start all over again, financial devastation, my interests tend to bore people so I'm afraid I'll never find someone else, feelings of complete worthlessness, feelings of failure, where do I put all my stuff, having to sell 2 houses, having to find an apartment when I do get a job, afraid I'll be no happier or worse, complete change of lifestyle...
That's what I can come up with in 2 minutes. My mind spins like a top! Sorry you asked?
