Beatrice, I'm so glad you returned to post your meeting. I truly do understand how you felt. I felt the same way when I met up w/my xh after about 5 years. It's true, it is like seeing someone that you've not seen in a very long time, a stranger maybe. For me, it was like looking at a person from a magazine photo and no emotion came forth.
Bea, the meeting has set you free. He still hasn't completely sorted himself out and may not unless he focuses on himself and his issues. At least the anger is gone and he now wants some type of relationship w/his family.
He lost a wonderful lady. I do believe he knows this, but he doesn't know how to begin to repair the damage. Some day, he may speak to you about it...but it's going to be a while yet.
Most importantly, take care of yourself. You are a very special lady.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
