Yes, I get the "can't cuddle with words." It's not your failure.
I've thought a similar thing about my M having a satanic quality. But you say something like that and people think you're nuts. I've related to it especially because H is such an outspoken Christian, yet doesn't do well actually living it.
LIS, this was one of the most directional posts I've read of yours. You seem quite convinced that you shouldn't be there. Are you just struggling with your love for your H? Or that craziness of his changing his mind? You don't have kids so I'm not sure what your biggest hurdle is.
I can see the difference with C's W. And, yes, she enjoys time with her H and I don't with mine, but then her H has changed from top to bottom and mine hasn't changed at all.
