Studies in Feral Cats, part 5

[TSquared2]

Thank you SO much you guys, it was such a nice and empowering thing to wake-up to your responses!

As luck would have it, a virus or something is making sure I get some rest, and giving me a reason to back off on the talks with W a bit.

There has been a lot of good stuff in the talks, along with the bad/difficult, so focusing on the good and letting the bad be just info that she needed to say aloud to "free" it from her mind.

I have been doing EXTREMELY well with the OMs and cyber info, I think maybe I really did/have let THAT part of this go and forgiven...nothing has really bothered me yet. It is also good that she is seeing it was what it was...an innocent curiosity turned into a band-aid/escape and then addiction/escape..and realizes those feelings of "new love" will always fade and or fluctuate, so what is she to do?

Run from new to new until she is old and ultimately alone? While doing more damage to what she has and maybe destroying it altogether? Or accept that reality of "new love feelings" and of her addiction to them and work it out and get through it and keep what she has built with us and the kids... Listening to her I see she is doing the mental work, realizing what she has done and who it has affected and that she has run from so much and when will she stop? What if she throws all this away and STILL isn't happy? These are some of what she is sounding out with me.

I know there is more to come with the OMs and her exploring, she did respond to my concern about STDs, without saying she never went PA/hookup, but that I didn't have to worry about STDs...lol...whatever I can infer from that...the answers will come, when they are ready.

I also have to keep in mind that her SAD is always the worst in Feb/March, so that affects her and her thinking regardless of MLC...hoping for a warm sunny spring this year....

Thanks to all of you, got my boots laced back up and back to work!


T^2