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[Raine]

nero, thanks so much for your post. I too don't agree with "God only gives you what you can handle." I don't think God had anything to do with this. I think we live in an imperfect world, with imperfect people, and we ourselves are imperfect. There is bound to be plenty of suffering for us without God pulling any strings. I do believe however that when we go through trials, that God is there to comfort us and strengthen us so we can handle what we're going through, not that we were strong enough to handle it at the beginning. I know I wasn't back in August. I was a suicidal mess.

I hate feeling the way you've been feeling too. Just when I think I'm at a good place, there is always something new. I really just want to run away from it all. I don't want to hear that "he may be in MLC, but you just never know." I just want someone to shake me and say "it's MLC and it's not going to be like this forever. Just hold on." I feel like I'm doing the right things, but there is the ever present feelings of doubt.